Thank you for stopping off to read a bit of my ramblings. 狢 do not claim to be an extremely wonderful poet, or even a half way good one, I just enjoy the writing. 狢 hope you enjoy the reading. �The first poem is my best friend Teresa's beginning attempt at poetry...I was proud of her, so I put it on my site.

~Wish Of Mine~
Sweet angelic
Love of mine
Please don't leave me
Ever behind
You love me truly
You love me deep
You're the one I
Always will keep
In the darkness
In the light
My kingdom is yours
My darling
My dear
Never be coarse
Roughness is not
What I need from you
Just say to me
I'll always be true

Šopyright 1998 Teresa Montijo

~Him~
See how he stands, so strong and sturdy there
Clouds of mist gathering 'round his feet
Seeming triumphant, turbulent, almost terrorizing
His soul a'flame with an unnatural heat

He walks alone...The Night his only true love, child
And yes, I know that you would enjoy holding his heart
There have been others who have wanted that same thing, girl
But listen to me, he has torn all their poor souls apart

Be careful love, for he will surely enrapture you
But he will also take you and leave you for dead
He cares not for you have what he wants now
For him, you are simply the means to an end

Quickly now run, he is walking your way child
Please... do not stand there and hold his gaze
No, please, do not whisper softly that you love him
I'm telling you sweet, it is all just a very cruel game

So I lean back, and I watch you walk away with him
And I know that you will never return here as you were
For you see, lovely...I tried very hard to warn you
I know these things because I was once one of those girls

Šopyrighted 1997 Angela Gulutz

~Travels in the Hourglass~
The journey began, simply because it was there
Boredom had said it was something to fare

The dune was aware, ever increasingly tall
Spraying itself against a stoney wall

The wave was sane, the wall was a cliff
Our footprints, covered, with the ever slow drift

The ascent felt fire, the descent felt rhyme
Yet they existed together...throughout that very short time

A cloudless blue sky and a red setting sun
Spinning of the world was over and done

My right hand feel cool...on my left the sun beamed
Two sides of the dune were as two worlds it seemed

The scentery, like a painting, too perfect to be real
In my mind t'was a blazing, as if by flaming steel

On this I think, and with life do compare
The footprints were memories..and with time do fare

Šopyrighted 1998 Angela Gulutz

~Soul's Apparant~
conflicted, torn, breaking away
seamless, scarred, scared
know now he is on his way
lost, simply lost
unable to find anywhere
anything
anyone
especially not myself
mistaken
persistant
stubborn
defiant
who am i again?
emptiness settles in
as does the numb
look at that shadow
thin
transparent
is that me?
puzzled
broken
fixed
anguished
yes...it is me

Šopyright 1995 Angela Gulutz

~One More Day~
Would one more day give me a chance
To change the things I've obviously done so wrong?
When the pieces I put together
Just didn't seem to belong.

Would one more day give me a chance
To say what I never could?
I'd hold off until tomorrow
Knowing I never would

Would one more day bring back the past?
Or was it just a crush...never meant to last?

Would one more day bring back
Those special moments with you?
But whom am I kidding?
Dreams really don't come true.

Šopyrighted 1997 Angela Gulutz

~Angela~
A deeper soul, a tormented scream
Anguished thoughts from a hellish dream
A fight never won, yet never lost
Just to keep warring over these thoughs
Never give up, never give in
Hopeing in the end I might win
Knowledge, persistent in it's plot
Wisdom in learning all is lost
Time and age, a wicked game
And all the time it's still the same
You know me, I am you
The person you've hidden away from assumed
For all your anger and all your fears
Have been safely hidden for all these long years
I am back, surprise, here I am
I am still me and you are still a sham
Life has it's games and you have your fun
Yet all the time you always run
Away from the truth and straight for the lies
Easier to deal with.... and besides
If you had to face me, what would you do?
I know what you would do
You would deny you
But, you are you...
Or aren't you?

Šopyright 1996 Angela Gulutz

~Want~
Questions burning, senses lost
My soul slipping slowly southward
Kisses teasing, touches soft
Trembling towards total darkness
Shivers, moans, a loud sudden gasp
Teeth clenched, hands with a mind of their own
Tasting, touching, teasing, desire
Panting, pulling, pushing away
Softly mumbled incoherent words
Screams and loud rumbling growls
Living in this moment
Dying in this moment
But, still, aching for this moment
Tell me...
Please that you feel it too

Šopyright �1998 Angela Gulutz

~Hoping~
Across many deep and troubled waters
I heard your heart...it called to me
From a distance I felt your touches
Over the miles we two came to be

The wind, it carried your kisses
The storms, they gave me your light
The rumble of the distant thunder
Swept to me your voice from the night

The clouds rolled along the starless sky
The rain fell as fast as my eternal tears
My body lays aching to simply feel you
Begging, despite my ever present fear

Will I never know your whispered caress
Feel your heart beat under my cheek
Will I never get to taste your lips
Will my soul always continue to seek

I feel you there, standing, watching over me
And yet...you are forever so far away
Just know this, my love, my devotion
Remains with you...until my dying day

Šopyright 1998 Angela Gulutz

~Midnight Sky~
An old man in his rocking chair
And the young children gathered 'round
Listening to him tell his tales
As darkness begins to surround

The old man's eyes twinkle
As the children laugh out loud
The young ones listen intently
And the wise one, he seems proud

He tells stories of where he's been
And tales of all he has done
Sometimes he stretches the truth a little
No matter...the children still have fun

The old man's stories are full of enchantment
And the children's faces are full of joy
He happily tells his stories
To every gathered girl and boy

The old one begins to quiet
And the younger start to yawn
The stories began last night
But now...it's nearly dawn

You see, the children, they were the stars
And the old man, he was the moon
And if you didn't get to listen to the tales
They'll be back in the sky very soon

Šopyrighted 1997 Angela Gulutz

~Dresden Doll~
The strangest eyes, oh sweet from twilight near
Whenever glowed and moved my heart to cheer
Your charm so bold that vanquished with all my fear
A nobel touch like demask'd rose kept years

The inquisitive music that I hear
Will always linger in my ear
Every so often I sneak to listen
To see if she has changed her position

I wait for creaks and stifled chilled shivered groans
But always she resumes her elegant pose
In steady streams of star dust seeming like snow
She is the fairy princess I yearn to be

Šopyrighted 1998 Angela Gulutz

~You~
Look, love, watch me
Rising swiftly to the sky
Dancing among the clouds
Twirling around moonbeams
Watch as I grab this lightning bolt
Tossing it down to earth
To you
A gift for you, my everything
Turning my face up to the rain
Tasting it's sweetness on my lips
Receiving an invitation from heaven
For me to drink my fill
Laughing, listening to the thunder clap
Bowing as it applauds me
Spinning and sending a wink
Over my shoulder
To you
Skipping around stars
Kneeling down to tickle an angel
Then stopping
Sad
And looking down
To you
Knowing this will all be nothing
If I cannot have you too
Jumping off the rainbow I was sliding
And slowly descending
Back down
To you
So... do you want me to stay?
Here...
With you?

Šopyright 1997 Angela Gulutz

~January~
Bitter cold ripping through my flesh
Wind tearing me asunder
My hands, my face, my toes are numb
I'm shaking and my soul feels frozen
Stiffer than steel, as hard as stone
I can feel no warmth reach me
All of this and so much more
Just from the look in your eyes
As you turn around
And walk away from me
Never to return

Šopyright 1997 Angela Gulutz

~Alone~
Standing, walking, dancing
Completely alone
Yet thousands around me
Raging against myself
Fighting against them
Losing everything completely
Keeping eternity inside
Striving for my own
Perfection
Not your idea of it
Tripping, skipping, falling
Utterly alone
My heart pounding
My knees week
Fear, a constant terror
Of dying this way
So alone

Šopyright 1998 Angela Gulutz